Thursday, October 04, 2007

Farewell to my Grandma

I'm a bit stunned and feeling a bit loopy so I hope I make sense.

My Grandma died this morning at 4.30am. She'd been very ill and had dementia very badly, and its been an agonising year ushering her towards the end with as much dignity as we could. It is one of those situations where it is a relief, but at the same time so indescribably sad. She's been such a presence in my life that I can't really comprehend that she's gone.

Am at work, Mum rang with the news about an hour ago and hubby is at home with the kids who are sick. People are suprised I'm not rushing home, but right now the peace of my desk is what I need, rather than their clamouring neediness. I'll head off in an hour or so, when its all sunk in and I'm capable of concentrating on the traffic.

This is not what I was expecting today.

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Sami Lee said...

Sad news Cait.

Thinking of you,

Sami

Caitlyn Nicholas said...

Thanks Sami, appreciate your thoughts.

Cait.

Rachael Blair said...

Oh Cait... my thoughts are with you and your family. I know the sadness of losing a grandparent, despite them being ill and having dementia. In time, the happy memories will be stronger...
RACH!

Suzanne Brandon said...

Sorry to hear about your Grandma Cat. I lost my grandmother in 2000 and I miss her so much. Remember the good times, as I am sure there were plenty.
All the best
Suz

Caitlyn Nicholas said...

Thanks so much for your support. The funeral is next Thursday and we're in that awful limbo time, waiting to say our goodbyes.

There's a note pinned on my corkboard right in front of me, its from her, just a change of address from when they moved into the old peoples home and a scribbled note sending her love. Its been there so long that I'd stopped seeing it. But now its taken on a whole new meaning. I'll treasure it.

From where I sit I can see two of the tapestries she stitched for me, and now that I think of it our couch is a hand-me-down from her, she chose it. She's left me all these little bits of herself and right now that's such a comfort.

Helzkat said...

my deepest sympathies for you and your family Cait.

Helzkat said...

my deepest sympathies for you and your family Cait.

Suzanne Brandon said...

Sorry to hear about your Grandma Cat. I lost my grandmother in 2000 and I miss her so much. Remember the good times, as I am sure there were plenty.
All the best
Suz